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I started the day with morning pages and a meditation, trying to settle my nervous system before the high-stakes vulnerability of the afternoon. I bought clinical-strength deodorant. I chose an outfit specifically designed to hide sweat. I was prepared to read. I was prepared for the nerve. When I arrived at Wolverine Farm, the fear was simple: don’t be awkward. But the room was soft around the edges, a supportive little bubble. It was full of creative women using their voices, bookended by...

The photo is grainy, the colors slightly blown out by a flash that caught us mid-laugh. There we are, our smiles so big they’re swallowing our eyes. It’s that uninhibited childhood joy. My brother is in his Flash shirt. I am in silky Avon jammies, the kind that felt like luxury against the static of the carpet. We are cross-legged, action figures in hand, about to build a world. To the right, the heavy, vinyl slope of a waterbed anchors the room. It was the early 90s; we hadn’t heard of...

The air in the Salt Lake Valley has a specific weight to it: dry, sage-scented, and heavy with the shadow of the Wasatch Front. As a child, those mountains weren't just geography; they were the walls of our world. They stood as silent, granite witnesses to every Sunday drive and every testimony shared. I remember the distinct, itchy ritual of those mornings: the smell of extra-hold hairspray in the foyer, the rhythmic thump of a hymn book hitting a padded pew, and the sight of a thousand...